Call me stuupid .

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roses are red

violets are blue

sunflowers are yellow

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ARE YOU SERIOUS. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? You’re telling ME to calm down? i’m sorry that he’s an attention hog and that i have to keep all my feelings and emotions to myself. I’m sorry that i actually have patience and got so sick and tired of his useless self. I’m sorry that i happen to have outbursts because i can never express my feelings. I’m sorry that there’s no room for my feelings and my life because of his stupid attention whoring bad tempered nature.

i don’t think i’ve ever felt so damn useless in my entire life.

this day started out like crap. i slept at 3:30ish in the morning studying for my mini midterm. and so in spanish, we took this 6 question test that was literally so easy. But i couldn’t think or anything, i was so tired that i know for sure i failed it because i repeated 2 words twice. And i found out i had an 86 in that class and i need an A. And at lunch, there was this voting thing for officers of a club. and it was totally rigged because all the popular kids won, which annoyed me so much. It confirmed that i’ll never be able to win anything. And during my minimidterm, i didn’t know anything and blanked out, garunteeing a C at most. And afterschool, i was late to this robotics meeting and things were already getting started and these two kids were like “oh, he’s being more of a vp than you. he’s being a pseudovice president.” and i was like “do i look like a care?” and they kept on saying it in a mean, mocking way. and that made me feel bad because i’ve been so tired. And when we came to actually building robots, i didn’t know anything or how to do anything and i looked so stupid.
and when i got in the car, my mom lectured me about how stupid i was because of spanish. And how i needed an A. And she kept on bothering me about going to this friend’s house so he could edit our video. And so i went around 8 and we got locked out of his apartment for a good 15 minutes until this girl opened it. and so we were editing and he had this new shotgun. and somehow he let go of it and it hit my face. and yes, it did hurt. and later, around 9:30, he decided to just lie down on his brother’s bed but fell asleep. So i was attempting to edit on his computer but i didn’t know a think about Vegas Pro. and he was just sleeping. for one hour. and i kept trying to wake him up but he wouldn’t. it was late and my mom wanted me home. and i started poking him harder and he slapped me away and after 5 minutes, he finally got up all grumpy. and i asked him if he could just render what he has so far so that i could take it home to finish. so he clicked for it to render, and fell back asleep. And rendering was going to take about 40 minutes. so i just cancelled it about 20 minutes through and i ejected the Usb and just left his house. And i ran back to my house and i just started crying and crying. and i couldn’t stop crying.
God, i’m so stupid. i can’t even do simple things.